Do I feel in the light of the lord or just passing time untill my time of true judgement. I know people who have their hearts in the lords work and their is another way that every person has an era that they lose faith. The work that most inwardly effects my every day life has been very rewarding although I don't actually feel it acting upon my body. I have then been satisfied in belief that this holiness acting within is now my need to reach my spirit whether I think that Jesus will save me or I will be gone tomorrow.
I think this is the security we find in truely repenting to our own will and become wiser as will is given to his better way.
So we try changing to please god in so that he will give us joy back. But that is only that simple feeling when we trust in him and give our seoul truly to commit their lives to him.
Lack of faith is just that tool which I have seen to work my miracles in his work. Such a surprise to me is just that I can return to god broken spirited and claim back my life.
If I think I can only hold on to the hope that I am here for this purpose to be subject to his purpose for humanity I am able to continue.
amen.
